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Affairs of the Heart


Sometimes it is forbidden
You are not allowed to touch
You are not allowed to taste
You are not allowed to say

Sometimes it is forbidden
You are not allowed to hope
You are not allowed to dream
You are not allowed to ‘feen’

Sometimes you find love
In a place with no space
And you must rely on grace
Or choose to suffocate

Sometimes the person who you see as your ‘other half’
Is already whole
And it does not matter how tightly your goals – align
How your minds seem to – intertwine
How you suddenly feel – defined
Because space and time betrayed you

With the passage of time
Probably at some time before yours
They met another
Committed to another
Became one with another

So grown one, revert to a childlike state
And listen to your mother:

“Do not have affairs
Do not steal another person’s property
Do not do things in the dark that will cause you to squint in the light
Do not defile what is sacred
Whether to you, or to another
Do not fight it, flee it
Do not try it, ‘free it’
Do not give in to a false sense of pride that tells you you’re different and it is special”

You owe it to yourself
To put trust over lust
For in life you must
Decide every day
To draw lines in the sand
That you won’t ever cross
And put trust over lust

Trust that…
Time will pass
And time will tell
And time will heal
Because one day you will be on the other side of the fence
And prayer will be your only defense
You will hope and pray
That your other half
Will not break you by breaking bread and emotions with another

So listen to your mother

Back away
And wait for the day
When your heart will cleave
And your soul will release
Everything you held back
To one who is free
And one who will be
The other half of thee

Where there was one
There will be another
And when its you
Two shall become one too

Sometimes its forbidden
And sometimes its serendipity
If you hold out for the latter
You could possess what’s truly ‘meant to be’



Zeni St. John

  • Testimony

    Good write up. Nice reminder. Tough reality

    I hate this post because it’s true and it forces one to face to truth. Truly, it is hard to meet a great guy you connect with, only to find out he’s taken…It takes courage to just let go!

    I had to pray to God yesterday to align me with my better half who is truly half and needs help that only I can give him. It’s no coincidence this post came up today!

    Daddy I hear you loud and clear

    Thanks Zen

    July 11, 2016 at 8:48 pm Reply
  • SR St John

    Solid perspective.
    I love the symbol of the padlocks. There is a key for each padlock and granted a spare key could be cut, why would anyone so wonderfully made choose to be the spare key. Padlocks abound and there’s a special key for each one.
    Not all mothers though would advise their daughters against becoming “spare keys”.
    The pressures mount on girls to find a husband, search for Mr Right and it doesn’t matter who or how.
    The new thought is that each individual is whole, not half, for in the divine being-ness we God’s arithmetic is the two shall be one.. The other one comes and the essence is that two wholesome parts unite to magnify the creator and bring out the best of each other.

    When a woman realises that she is whole, she will not feel hollow, that semi-circular insecurity & incompleteness will not drive her round the bend at 180° to find the other half.

    Wise words for woman yet again, young and old.

    July 11, 2016 at 11:38 pm Reply
  • David

    Great work Zee…
    It’s truly a reminder not only to ladies but to guys who seek to unlock any padlock that they see. As true as it sounds, the world doesn’t believe in this ideology anymore. So pathetic.
    Treasures are always searched for and eventually become great value and assets that we treasure so much. They become so because we searched for them. We must not be tried or quite in the search of our treasured half because they eventually become great value and assets that we treasure so much.

    July 12, 2016 at 2:40 pm Reply
  • Sekyen

    Exactly on point…

    August 4, 2016 at 10:32 am Reply

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