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The F Word

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Event after event Opportunities after another And so the story went From one decision to another   I wish the knocking would stop Every time I get up I wish the confidence remained Then I would be willing to try again   But I find the curious case Of when I set about a new endeavor The knocking gets louder Once I move outside the known perimeter   Then my temperature rises As I leave my comfort zone It's so uncomfortable I'd much rather be left alone   The application lay before me I entered the first few fields But then began to calculate The odds and the yield I heard my other colleagues say The application was competitive Those planning...

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It’s Your Party – DJ If You Want To!

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I had lost control over my own body. My limbs were betraying my initial intentions. It seemed I no longer had a say over an activity I had scheduled myself. Without realizing it my right hand reached out and impatiently tapped the speed button. What had begun as a run at the speed of '8' was down to a ‘5.4’ and getting lower every few seconds. I silently encouraged myself, “You can do it girl. You’re strong. You’re fast. Tired? What’s that?”   Yet body betrayed me further. My heart pounded in my chest and my legs...

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A Mile in Her Shoes

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Navigating to the Finish Line I was practically sprinting down the street. I was in a hurry. Dodging puddles left behind from the morning rain I weaved through passersby and tourists who didn’t really seem to have a particular destination in mind. I on the other hand did. It was graduation season. Everywhere I looked there were purple robes hung carelessly over the shoulders of carefree students, stuffed into their handbags, slung over their arms. The mood was carefree and celebratory. Individuals called out to one another and strangers wished anyone with the purple cape ‘congratulations!’   The...

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Patience My Dear: Your Bus is Coming

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It was 6:35 p.m. on Market Street in Manchester. I was sat at the bus stop waiting for the 62 that would drop me a quarter mile from Granny’s house. I had a lot of bags and very little patience. I had been out all day and just wanted to get home, have a bowl of rib and dumpling soup, and relax. The West Indies was playing India that evening and I had promised Grandad I would watch the cricket with him. I had things to do and the bus was already 7 minutes later...

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Square Dancin’ My Way to the Top

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I don’t remember what class it was, but somewhere during my pre-teen days we were taught to square dance. You must understand that my middle school class consisted of 26 students, with about 18 countries of origin between us all. We were a diverse and spirited young group, with teachers who introduced us to all sorts of off the wall things – including square dancing. I liked excitedly screaming out the “do-si-do” (pronounced 'dough-see-dough') part, but generally disliked square dancing.   Besides the fact that I abhor organized dance, I think I particularly disliked this one because...

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Menstrual Cycle State of Mind

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It’s a searing pain in a place you don’t really know exists till it begins. It happens in organs and spaces you can never really feel until you do feel them. Then it is hard to be aware of much else. It’s a push, a pull, and a contracting pressure that doesn’t let up for 24 – 48 hours if you’re one of the luckier ones. It is like a miniature orchestra with sharp instruments rented out the lowest part of your stomach to play an unending symphony that sets you on edge. It is...

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“Special Is As Special Does”

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Have you ever had this sneaky feeling that you’re special? I mean really special. Diamond in the rough, destined for greatness, legend in the making kind of special. Have you had an inner confidence since you were a child that one day you were going to do something truly great? The good news is – you are special! You are fearfully and wonderfully made. You have a mission that is yours alone to accomplish, a mark to leave, and lives to impact. That’s the good news. The bad news is – special is as special...

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Beautiful, Strip Away the Labels

Y O U .  A R E  .  N O T  .  P  R E T T Y You are not tall You are not ugly You are not small - You are not white You are not black You are not slow You are not 'fast' - You are not loose You are not uptight You are not out of mind Nor are you out of sight - You are not skinny You are not fat…or phat…or fatt You are not sexy You are not 'all that' - You are not the sh*t You are not a b*tch You are not a stepping-stone A building block A some-thing to own - You are not classy Nor are you last season You are...

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